Just found this letter to myself 11 years ago pre deliverance
I am posting this for any that are Seeking God and still lost.
Keep the faith, keep seeking Him. Do not give up. He has not given up on you.
Jesus loves you.
note from 2006 to myself…
With out God I fail.
There is no other outcome, no other scenario, no other nothing, no other formula.
Consistently I fail.
I imagine I am not alone in this feat.
If others dare to admit they fail than undoubtedly it is without God even if they are with God.
God’s will is non failure.
By not performing God’s will failure is imminent.
The only reason I still stand is by God’s grace allowing me to repent.
Had I lived in another time I may already be dead in life.
However God’s word says He gives us life to repent and come to Him.
May I repent, may I learn from my inherent wickedness and evil.
Some beliefs are that we are basically good.
We may be in spirit but by no means in action.
And this spirit if it is good then it must be the Holy Spirit from and is God.
So even if we are basically good it is not us but us emulating our origins our likeness of our creator our God.
However our constant evilness which manifests itself in all ill will and selfishness pride envy deceit that is our fallen nature our birthright from our disobedience to our creator.
We disobey God.
We take the reigns of our life and runaway.
Even knowing better, we still disobey.
If cognizance is noted than patterns will emerge.
If not following God’s will than failure.
If not reading God’s word and accepting God’s gift and following God’s Holy Spirit and seeking God and begging God for your Heart to be softened so His Holy Spirit may work in you so that reading His word will be as sowing spiritual seeds treasures in Heaven.
Otherwise you can read but to what end?
Not praying God’s will be done, praising His Holiness and majesty.
Thanking Him for His Gift of Life salvation and grace and mercy.
Not participating in the body of Christ.
How miserably i fail.
I not only fail in the basics parts of what I am supposed to do not out of law but out of default living through God’s grace..
I also do what I am not supposed to Do..
My language is vile, my heart impure, I feed my lust I do what I want.
I am not sowing treasure in heaven I am sowing death and rottenness and stench
“Don’t overlook the obvious here, friends.
With God, one day is as good as a thousand years, a thousand years as a day.
God isn’t late with his promise as some measure lateness.
He is restraining himself on account of you, holding back the End because he doesn’t want anyone lost.
He’s giving everyone space and time to change.”
2 Peter 3:8-9 MSG
Thank you Father for Your Faithfulness to Your Word, Your Mercy, Your Long-suffering for Your Lost Sheep. Keep redeeming us our Good Shepard, in Jesus Name Amen